I’m scared


Here’s the long due update on my writing life.

You know I’m an indie author. And I love it! You never held it against me that I didn’t publish my books with a big publishing house and gave my stories a fair chance. That’s probably the strongest reason, why I love you all. That and because you seem to love Ryan Hunter as much as I do, LOL.


You know it’s going to get serious when that word comes in, right?

So…deep breath

A few weeks ago, Marisa A. Corvisiero from the Corvisiero Literary Agency contacted me. Not because of my books, well, not in the first place anyway. But like it’s always with weird coincidences, she asked me who my agent was. I told her I had none and asked her if she was interested. It was a joke!! But now it’s earnest. She made a tempting offer which I couldn’t resist in the end. Doesn’t mean anything yet, only that there is a chance. However—oh there is that word again—last night I got the first real glimpse into what it means to be presented by the top.

Chatty Marisa is wonderful. Bossy Marisa scares me as hell. LOL

rocketship_undiesOkay, no, it’s not that bad, but when I found out she set me with an entire team of her agency to push my sales and promote the hell out of my books, my knees started to tremble. Why? Because I didn’t expect this. I promised her to write book 4 in the Grover Beach Team series as fast as I could, but no one mentioned a blog tour with about 100 stops in a very short time before. Can you imagine how this makes me dread that I won’t meet everyone’s expectations? For the first time, I’m scared of the business.

There’s a lot of additional work to do, which throws me back. Really back. I will not be able to write what I like in the next half year, Crazy_stack_Booksbut I will write what is expected of me. Yes, I know I was already doing this for the past ten months anyway when I gave in and wrote first Ryan Hunter and then also Tony’s book for you. And damn, I loved writing their stories. 😉 But when the latter was finished and released, I really thought, wow I can finally take a breath and write some stories that have been flittering in my mind for years now.

Once again, they have to stand back, which makes me a little sad, because one of those books is the story set in Neverland where I had you all enter your names in comments to pick a few for my heroine and her friends. But don’t worry, I will write that book, just not in the next 6 months. And when I get to finally write it, I know it’ll be one of my best books ever. So yeah, you may look forward to it. 🙂

On another note, I quit my 4-hours-a-day-job in an office two weeks ago. I’ll miss my friends there and Crazy ClocksI’m getting teary every time I think of leaving soon, but in the end I had to make a decision. 15-hour-working-days (and I mean every day, including Saturdays and Sundays) are just too long at some point. My husband recently asked me if we still lived in the same house together, because he’s seeing me so rarely these weeks…okay, months. Heck, we’re talking about a couple of years now. That was the moment where I knew I had to change something.

I’m a workaholic. I never thought I was going to say that of myself one day, but it’s the truth. I can’t rest. I just can’t. Whenever I do anything but writing or plotting or blogging or answering interviews or working on covers or whatever…I feel restless. I can’t enjoy lunch or dinner, I can’t sit still in front of the TV. I don’t meet my friends very often as of late, and sleep…well, let’s say I’m glad I still know how to spell it, ha ha.

Anyways, what this post is all about…

writer-fffI guess I just want to apologize in advance for any promises I’m unable to keep, any deadlines I’ll fail to meet, and if you send me an email and I’m not replying within a reasonable time, please don’t be mad. I’m still reading them all and I’m definitely going to answer. It might just take a little longer from now on…

All right, this turned out longer than I’d planned. Sorry for getting carried away here. But there are just a few more things I want to throw out with this post.

Book information:


I’m currently working my ass off (well, my fingers actually) to finish the translations of Loving Your Lies. The German edition should be coming out around Christmas. I’ll do my best, but please don’t nail me on it.


Tony’s book is getting a new cover soon. I had cover models posing for it because some of you thought the current cover doesn’t match the style of the Grover Beach Team covers and it’s misleading  as far as the story is concerned. I agree with you. Thus…the new cover. Soon, guys. Be patient. I have to be, too… 😉

BOOK #4 in the GROVER BEACH TEAM series

…is in process. I plotted it through and I already started with the first chapter. But it will definitely take a few more months to be finished. I can’t say how many, but there’s no chance we go in less than 4. Again, be patient. The story is about Cloey and Justin. Like in book 3, there’ll only be small elements of soccer, just so much that you know it belongs in the series. Old friends will show up, but this time it’s really focusing on the hero and heroine alone. Don’t expect too much Hunter, Mitchell, Summers, Matthews, Frederickson, Miller, Winter, or Simpkins in it. Then you can’t get disappointed.

BOOK #5 in the GROVER BEACH TEAM series

…might come one day, but not any time soon. writingI have plans for Susan and also for Nick Frederickson, but not in the same story. Before I’m going to write these books, I absolutely make it my top priority to finally listen to my personal wishes first and write what I feel good about. I hope everything’s calming down in the second half of 2014 for me and I can be relaxed me again instead of pushing-my-limits-until-I-can’t-anymore-me. I can cope with being the latter only for so long until I’m going to throw in the towel. I don’t want to reach a point where writing isn’t fun anymore.


Gabriel is the first book in a paranormal series I started a long time ago. The book is so close to getting finished, but with all the new events coming up, it will once again have to wait. And then I decided for myself, I’m going to write at least three books in the Archangel series, before I’m going to release any of them. Less pressure from expectant readers this way, and everyone can enjoy a looong read. 🙂

Okay, that’s it, I guess. Thanks for listening. I know I pretty much strained your patience with this post. The next one will be shorter again, I promise. 😉

Have a beautiful late fall, all of you!


4 thoughts on “I’m scared

  1. Don’t be scared! Exciting times ahead! Can’t wait to see what the future holds for Piper Shelly 🙂

  2. Yeah, me neither. After all it’s been a dream of mine for so long. I shouldn’t piss my pants now, right? 😉

  3. It is nice to have something to be scared of, because it means we have something we really care about and enjoy, something we don’t want to lose. That said, don’t worry, just take a deep breath and have as much fun as you can. I’m sure everything will work out. And if you happen to have a bad day, remember, you still have us to back you up if you need help… you just have to scream, or blog LOL

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